Fall is coming...

Great Day...

Today has been a great day. I have been praying and just feel good about things. I am positive that things are going our way. We are going to get this water leak fixed soon and just keep livin'. I am in a very good mood. I miss my hubby, but got to talk with him a minute ago. He will be home tomorrow at 6. Love him so much. My attitude is much better today. No stress, less worrying. Prayer works. Love to spread the Word. Well, just wanted to share my good and positive day.  God bless...

Feeling positive...

Ok, gotta keep going. This is getting better for us. We are happy. This is the last weekend jail for Tommy. I'm so happy. I just wish I could talk to him or schedule a visit. Sux. But, he will be home soon. Then, he has permission from the landlord to fix the leak since the plumber said it was too difficult to fix. Either way, we have a plan and we know God is encouraging us to keep going. Cody is even being positive about all this. I'm glad we can come together and pray and talk about things. We are going to make it. I love these guys. We will not give up...

God bless.

Still swimming...

I'm at a loss right now. I have been trying to keep it together all day and I'm about to break. If it is not one thing it's 20. When are things gonna go my way again? I thought we were going in the right direction and doing good. I'm praising God for all of our blessings, I'm praying, I'm trying. What happened?  Our refrigerator went out, we had to get a new water meter, now we have a water leak and Tommy is not here to fix it. I'm lost here. I can't do all of this myself. Tommy is at weekend jail and I can't talk to him because the jail lost my phone deposit money. I can't schedule a time to see him because their website is retarded and I can't schedule one in person because it's too late. I'm pissed. I am praying amd trying not to lose it right now. I know God is with me. I just want to talk to my husband. He knows what to say to help me. Please pray we make it. I know other people have bigger problems. I know I can handle ours, one step at a time.

Yet again...

I'm so tired of haters. I pray she can find something to make her happy since I'm done letting her run over me. I will not respond to her hateful, name calling, insulting texts.  It is really affecting my attitude but God will sort it all out. I have faith that she will figure out that I don't have to play her game.

God bless.

Better days ahead...

Well, turns out Cody had a good day after all the fiasco yesterday morning. I was extremely worried.  But, as usual, our boy bounced back and conquered.  Hallelujah!! 

Cody says he will end up liking this bigger, different school. I hope.

I pray that he can make friends and keep the drama low in his group of friends. Here lately, there is drama everywhere. 

Well, I guess that person who wants to kill me is biding their time. She keeps texting me and taunting me to let me know she is either going to whoop my ass ads or kill me. I just have to ignore all the horrific texts and name calling. I will not plat her game and respond.  I get very angry and it makes me sad that someone can be so hateful to me. I knew she was like this, but this is so very wrong. I knew how she could be to others since I have witnessed it to people I don't know and even Tommy's and my family. I should have been prepared for the nasty, horrible person that I saw yesterday. I will not be around this person nor let my son be around her. She only sets a bad example each time we see her and she will not take it out on us. I'm not perfect by any means, but I only did what my husband told me to do and that is it. I will not let her run over me. I was so sick yesterday from her words. Tommy said not to let it bother me and that she does it on purpose and that she was wrong in everything she was saying. If she had been nice from the beginning and not insulted me for the last 2 weeks prior to us moving,  she would not have had to clean the house we moved out of. I would have done it properly when I had the time.  She does not care that I have responsibilities that I have also. It does not all revolve around her and that is where she got mad that I did not bow down to her and jump when she thought I needed to. I ain't nobody's bitch and she now knows it. I have bent over backwards for her also and have done numerous things for her. I know she helped us out, but she don't have to throw it in my face constantly.  That is what makes me the maddest.  I will not understand why someone says they want to help, but when you ask for help or they actually do help that they look down on us and treat us like shit. She ain't any better than me or should I say she isn't any better than me. She should not try to think she is perfect. I know better and have  caught her in too many lies. It's disgraceful the way she lies about her husband and to her husband. I will not be a part of that.

Well, there I went into a rant again. I am just trying to talk it out and get it off my chest. I'm hopefully going to get this all behind us.

I'm praying it all blows over.

God bless.

Cody's first day of High School ruined

So upset. Cody's first day of high school is ruined by a person who tried to bully me around and threaten me. She won't threaten my husband to his face but threaten to send him to prison to me to torture me. She has threatened me for the last time with her LIES. I'M TIRED OF HEARING GET LIES!! That is all that comes out of her mouth. She threatened to kill me today. All her nasty voicemails and horrific texts will make a good laugh when it is over but right now I'm sick. I am just tired of people running over me and thinking they are better than me. She needs to stop and realize the situation before she opens her mouth. And to call me a lazy day bitch is uncalled for. Man, I wian she would take a gander in the mirror. It may show her the truth. I know that people who are unhappy try very hard to make others unhappy to make them feel better. I have been praying for her, my husband, my son and for myself to keep calm and let this blow over. I will not be talked to like that. She will continue to be hung up on and her texts ignored if she continues to act that way. I will not let her talk to me or my family like that. I'm done with this devil of a person. There is no forgiveness unless God Himself has me forgive this person. My husband is standing behind me 100 percent and I am standing behind him the same. I don'tknow why people have to lie and threaten people. It makes me sick. It literally makes me sick. My blood pressure is way high right now and I have a massive headache and I want to throw up. This has got to stop. I am done with this person even though they are my husband's family. He has had told me that after today we will not have anything to do with her since she has threatened our family. I am ranting out my frustrations since she ruined my son's first day. She threatened to come up there to the school to assault me and kill me. I swear. I pray that she can live with her actions. I pray for all in this situation and pray noone is hurt more than they are now.  We can survive this. God is in our side. God bless.

Overwhelmed and fed up

I am just tired of some people.  I know I need to pray for them, but they seem upsetting me on purpose. They damn well know it affects me and I'm just done. I know they are liars and that they don't care about me so why do I even try to help them when I get stabbed in the back. What can I do? I just have to keep trying I guess. I'm just broken. This wears me down. Along with the moving to a new house, changing schools and I'm failing both of my classes since I have no time to study or do my homework. I'm just ready to scream and give up. I want to hide from the world and stay away from everyone. This one person is evil and nasty and spreads a lot of bullshit about us to everyone. I just want to do good in my life and when I try this person find the wrong in it and points it out for all to see and it overshadows the good. I'm lost here. I need God to get me through this.

Father, I pray that you give my family strength to get through this without an awful incindent. I want to pray for her and make her see that I am trying to help and I want to be a good person Lord. I also pray that you keep  Tommy and Cody calm through all this.  Thank you for all of the blessings we have received.
In Jesus name I pray.  AMEN 

New house, new possibilities

Oh my gosh. I can't believe it,  but here we are. Finally getting our shit together. I hope. It's a hard road, but I'm willing to travel it instead of doing the wrong things in life and having everyone look down on me and making me feel like crap. I (We) are winning.  Not losing. If anyone has a problem with that, they can kiss my ass. Most of our so called friends want us to fail so we can be just like them to make them feel better.  Not gonna fail assholes.  They just need to learn to be happy for us because Tommy and I care about each other and our kids. So, our road to recovery may be long and bumpy, but we wouldn't have it any other way. Life isn't easy. God has a plan. You just have to have the patience and faith to hang in there.  Love my family so much. Gotta go for now. God bless.

Love spending time with my husband

Cody and I are in Andrews at the Andrews Motor Inn waiting for Tommy to get off work.  I love my family so much.  We are still making it and want to keep making it.  We still have faith that things are going to be good and that we will not fail.

God had blessed us and we will not return to our old ways and mess up our life again.

We are by no means perfect, but we see the how the meth and other drugs are affecting other families and it just hurts my heart to see that.  The "meth monster" is what everyone is calling it in Abilene right now is winning and we have to kill it and the devil.  I am so blessed to know the difference.  

Cody and his Cotton Patch Chicken Fried Steak

At Buffalo Wild Wings with Cody

Cody eating wings and Buffalo Wild Wings

Freckles being a good boy

Tommy and I at my work.

Cody at the Zoo

Still on our path...

It's been a while and I have been working and working everyday.  But, we are getting to stand more and more on our feet and on our own. We are not dependent on anyone as it should be... We are happy but tired and we just love being together. Our little family is killing it. We got this and so on and so on. I love my husband and my son and we are gonna make it.

Our life has been getting better and better everyday.  We are staying focused on God and each other.  I am so proud of my husband and my son for keeping going.  Right now Cody has swimmer's ear in both ears and is a little puny, but will soon be getting better.  We had a scare yesterday about his blood pressure and the possibility of diabetes.  I am working on getting him an appointment with a new pediatrician to get it all checked out.  I was extremely surprised when the Dr. said is lungs were clear.  I have been waiting a long time for that.  He has been doing better controlling his asthma.  I just pray we can keep it under control.  I love my family and want the best for them.

Well, Freckles is now 4 years old.  I love my little boy.  He means the world to me and I don't know what I would do without him.  He has been there for me when I needed him and not known what to do.  When Tommy was locked up he kept me sane and I am just glad that is all behind us now.  I am just so happy that we have put all of that behind us.  We are still paying for the probation each week and trying to pay it off.  We are still behind and we are trying like hell to pay it off.  But we are now getting the balance lower and lower each week.  We are trying so hard to pay off our tickets and surcharges and all that we owe.  I am praying every day to keep trying even though we don't make enough each week or every two weeks.  I know we can make it and just keep rising.  There is no going back to where we were.  I will not go back down that road and don't want to go through that hell again.  I love my family so much and there is no way we need to subject ourselves to that junk and filth again.

I am a fat old lady now, but I like to be fat and sassy.  Cody and I have decided that we are going to lose weight no matter what.  But, I am going to do it in a healthy way, not on dope like last time.  My recovery is very important and so is mine and Cody's health.

God bless.

We need to stay on our road to recovery...

I am really loving that we go and have fun and play disc golf at the park as a family. We need to get out more and exercise. We have gained a lot of weight since we stopped doing drugs. Recovery is a smart choice for us. We work our butts off, but are proud of everything we have done to get here. I am so proud of my husband and my son's and am willing to keep trying and keep going. Love my family. God bless.

Still feel like crap, but things are looking up...

We are still sniffling and hacking but trying to get better.  Don't know why we seem to be sick everyday, but maybe it will get better soon. We are trying so hard to shake sickness.  I love the fact we are on our own in a house, we have a car that is new to us, but it's new. Our family is together and I am so happy. We have got a lot of work to do at the house, but it will be worth it.

Went to a new church this morning...

Remember the Lord in all you do, and he will give you success. Proverbs 3:6 NCV http://bible.com/105/pro.3.6.NCV

We went to a new church today and it was good. It was a little different than the one in Brownwood, but had a wonderful message and a funny pastor. I enjoyed myself and sang and sang. I hope we go back. I want to finish the sermon he started. We really need to talk about God more. I pray we can pray more. That is my plan anyway.

Have a wonderful week and God bless.

Brrrr it's cold outside!!!!

Wow, woke up to 12° this morning. The weather channel says it felt like 4°.  I just know it was darn cold.  Sitting here with the dog and Tommy.  He is asleep.  At least he can sleep. When it gets a little warmer I gotta put my dog Freckles outside.  He doesn't get to stay inside unless it's below freezing. I miss him though.  Today has been a lazy day. I'm so freaking tired. My new job is kicking my butt. But, helping provide  is all I'm worried about . More later.  God bless.

I'm wanting this year to start off right...

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New Year New Us!!

We are beginning a new year in a new place once again. Bless my son's heart. At least he thinks he'll be happy returning to Clyde school. I'm not sure how to feel yet. I just know it's hard right now to keep going and not go back to our old ways.  I will not allow my family to go through that again. We cannot allow the dope and drug addiction to control us. We are stronger than that. When we can stay together helps. In the beginning of this, we were not in the same town and 100 miles apart due to probation. Instead of Tommy goin to prison, we decided to try letting Tommy stay in Abilene and Cody are I stayed in Brookesmith. That was just as hard as when Tommy was in jail. Then we get our crappy landlord to surprise us with evicting us. He even admitted that it was because Tommy was not there. I was shattered. Cody was worse since not five minutes after Cody put our Christmas tree (that someone gave us) up, the landlord gave us the bad news. Now, we are temporarily living with Tommy's sister in Abilene. At least we are with Tommy. Robbie and Donald are so gracious to let us live here. I am forever grateful. I love my family. They are my world.

This will in fact be a good year. For my family, our son, our recovery and our extended family . We are still dealing with Tommy being on 24-hour surveillance and we almost have his bail bonds company paid off. We have one more payment. Woohoo!! I'm loving being able to see my hubby every morning. He keeps me going whether I like it or not . LOL

More to come of this year...