Still on our path...

It's been a while and I have been working and working everyday.  But, we are getting to stand more and more on our feet and on our own. We are not dependent on anyone as it should be... We are happy but tired and we just love being together. Our little family is killing it. We got this and so on and so on. I love my husband and my son and we are gonna make it.

Our life has been getting better and better everyday.  We are staying focused on God and each other.  I am so proud of my husband and my son for keeping going.  Right now Cody has swimmer's ear in both ears and is a little puny, but will soon be getting better.  We had a scare yesterday about his blood pressure and the possibility of diabetes.  I am working on getting him an appointment with a new pediatrician to get it all checked out.  I was extremely surprised when the Dr. said is lungs were clear.  I have been waiting a long time for that.  He has been doing better controlling his asthma.  I just pray we can keep it under control.  I love my family and want the best for them.

Well, Freckles is now 4 years old.  I love my little boy.  He means the world to me and I don't know what I would do without him.  He has been there for me when I needed him and not known what to do.  When Tommy was locked up he kept me sane and I am just glad that is all behind us now.  I am just so happy that we have put all of that behind us.  We are still paying for the probation each week and trying to pay it off.  We are still behind and we are trying like hell to pay it off.  But we are now getting the balance lower and lower each week.  We are trying so hard to pay off our tickets and surcharges and all that we owe.  I am praying every day to keep trying even though we don't make enough each week or every two weeks.  I know we can make it and just keep rising.  There is no going back to where we were.  I will not go back down that road and don't want to go through that hell again.  I love my family so much and there is no way we need to subject ourselves to that junk and filth again.

I am a fat old lady now, but I like to be fat and sassy.  Cody and I have decided that we are going to lose weight no matter what.  But, I am going to do it in a healthy way, not on dope like last time.  My recovery is very important and so is mine and Cody's health.

God bless.

We need to stay on our road to recovery...

I am really loving that we go and have fun and play disc golf at the park as a family. We need to get out more and exercise. We have gained a lot of weight since we stopped doing drugs. Recovery is a smart choice for us. We work our butts off, but are proud of everything we have done to get here. I am so proud of my husband and my son's and am willing to keep trying and keep going. Love my family. God bless.

Brrrr it's cold outside!!!!

Wow, woke up to 12° this morning. The weather channel says it felt like 4°.  I just know it was darn cold.  Sitting here with the dog and Tommy.  He is asleep.  At least he can sleep. When it gets a little warmer I gotta put my dog Freckles outside.  He doesn't get to stay inside unless it's below freezing. I miss him though.  Today has been a lazy day. I'm so freaking tired. My new job is kicking my butt. But, helping provide  is all I'm worried about . More later.  God bless.

My dog Freckles

Freckles is just a miracle.  His mom had 10 pups total.  There were solid brown, solid black and only two speckled or freckled.  There was Freckles who is red, brown, tan and white and there is Toby who is black, silver and white.  Out of the 10 pups, only 3 survived.  Freckles is one and the other two barley made it from what I understand.  I took Freckles early to help the mom out since she had 10 and Freckles really never stayed up by the others anyways.  He was very loud and it bothered the owner of the mom.  The mom was a chocolate lab and the dad was a blue pit.  Pictured below is the dad, our blue pit, Blue.  Miss that boy everyday.  He was my husband's dog and he was the best.  Now, the mother of the pups, Pebbles is deceased too.  She died a week after I took Freckles.  Come to find out, she had been sick and I guess she passed through her milk to the other pups and 7 of them died.  Now like I said, I took Freckles early because he was different and that the owner of the mom didn't like him being so loud and staying off alone.  Thank God I took him is why he is healthy and alive today.  He is my baby.  He is huge now and will be two on July 4th.  But, I wouldn't take for him.  

I love my little Freckles.  He is the best dog I have ever had.  During my recovery and while Tommy is incarcerated.  This dog is my therapy.  He listens to me, lets me cry and tries to make it better, he is just an all around help.  Cody and Freckles get along most days.  They play a lot and fight a lot.  But, in any case I know I got a good, smart dog and at least he loves my husband or one of them would have to go.  And I guess I would have to find a good home for my husband to go to.  Ha Ha.  Just kidding.  They would have to suck it up and go on.  I would not give up my husband, my son or my dogs.  I love them all and my other sons and my daughter.  I love my family and it is us against the world.

Above is pictures of  Freckles enjoying the fan.  He is such a ham.  He loves to lay in front of the air conditioner and the fan.  He really cracks me up.  I love that boy.  He may be a Daddy soon.  More on that later.  God bless.