Well, we start off with bad news, Smoke died. She was just too young and a stray, so there wasn't much I could do. So, I had to bury my son's cat. He really loved her. But, things happen for a reason.  We never know. Only God knows.

Now Jones is doing rather well. She is helping me write this post now. I had to let Freckles and Sister out, they were disruptive. Lol.

My dogs and cat are part of my family and they are like my children. My babies are loved. And spoiled. They are the sweetest creatures.

I don't know if I could have made it through my recovery with my Freckles.

Well, here goes another episode in our saga.  Man, we are trying to catch a break and really really doing good, but things just cannot fall into place yet.  God has something planned for us and we just have to trust him.  We have tried 3 transmissions in the truck and none worked, so now we have put it aside and now have a car that we are working on.  I really want to get back to work even though I lost my job due to the no car thing and now I am looking for a new one but it cannot happen until we get wheels under us.  I know God has his timing and I trust Him.  Now my husband on the other hand tries to rush things and wants to hurry and get tires and etc for the car.  We will do this as soon as we can.  I know.  I love that man with all my heart and I hope he knows it.  This stress is tearing him up and he sometimes doesn't feel like a man and it angers him.  I try to reassure him but mess it all up sometimes.  It is hard for me too and he sometimes doesn't see that.  I need him and pray that his court date gets put off once again so we can get money saved up to pay more on his probation and on his bonds.  I am hoping for a miracle and need prayers.  God is with us and we will get through this.

We have two new faces in the family.  We have two new cats and they are the coolest.  I am not a real fan of them, but they chase mice and I am OK with that.  Tommy loves cats and I love him, so that is all.

Smoke

Jones

     I love my family more than anything and I am so proud of my husband and my children.  I am a proud wife and momma.  I pray for our family and what is going on around us and to keep everyone safe and happy.  Here is a pic of our youngest from last week:

So proud of my 14 year old!!

Things have gotten a little better since we are in recovery and will be working on this for the rest of our life.  We know we can do this and together we can beat it.

We are trying to be independent and don't like being dependent on other people to get a ride to town or to our appointments.  We thank God for the families around us and our friends and neighbors for their help.  Without them, we might still be lost and not be able to get back.  We want to thank everyone who has helped us along the way, family and friends.  (You know who you are).  God bless you all.

Ya can't keep us down. We will rise. And with all the setbacks, we have even more determination. Each time we get knocked down is a new way to prove how strong we are...

Anyways, I am Blogging today instead of doing my late homework. It'll all get done today. I'm gonna hip on it right after taking care of my sick kid, the laundry, the dishes, cleaning up the yard (again) & etc.

I wish I had more help. I'm really tired of the laziness. It seems like I'm the only one who cares. My husband doesn't get to stay home all the time since some idiot, yes we know who you are, keeps turning him in. We have to suffer apart a lot due to their stupidity. But, enough on that. Back to what I was saying. My husband would help if he didn't work all the time or can't be here. My son tries to help when he's not going to school or football. Our middle son who is 18, doesn't do much AT ALL. We are getting a little tired of his overall not do a damn thing.  He needs to wake up. He's gotta at least try.

With that being said, he's also gotta get that giant chip off his shoulder and quit getting butthurt at everything we say. And I do mean everything. When we try to teach him or even advise him, he gets defensive and there is no talking to him whatsoever. He immediately goes to his room, get on his phone and calls or texts someone he can cry to to tell them how bad we mistreat him. Poor Baby!!  It's tough being an adult. Ya ought to be in mine and your Daddy's shoes. Then you might see what it is like.

Don't get me wrong, we love all our kids and want what's best for them. We just aren't going to just give it to them.  They need to understand the value of themselves and to apply themselves.  It's only right.

We can't let them think life is easy. It's not all fun and games either. We pray for all of our families and hold them dear to our hearts and we want to see the best for them.

God bless.

Nervous

I'm sitting here waiting on my husband. He is at his Probation officer appointment and I am a little nervous since some dummy called in on him and told a bunch of half-truths and now he is in hot water. While we are trying to get our lives back together, someone tries to ruin it. I'm getting very tired of this person. Yes, we know who you are. So, we don't need your drama. We have heard all of the stories and we are sick and tired of your  Tommy is pissed. So, hopefully things go well, still praying. God bless.

Life is just hard...

There is no good way around it, life is hard and just gets harder.  All is well and good when we are kids and don't know it yet.  I hate it that we don't realize it.  Now granted my childhood was not perfect, but I know I had it better than some or most.  My grandparents raised me and took me from an abusive home and tried to make a better life for me and my brother.  They loved us enough to step up and take care of business.  I have learned many valuable lessons from my grandparents and really know that I am blessed because of it.


My kids know right from wrong and they know that hard work will get you somewhere, but things just fell apart.  We have so many things going wrong, but trying to go right it is not funny.  We are trying to get our lives back but things just aren't working according to "my" plan evidently.  I thought I was trying to follow "God's" plan for us.  I am not sure what to do.  Right now I know we are not supposed to take a U-turn and go back to what road we were on.  I know our road is long, but we have to keep going. Please pray for us to keep going on our road to recovery.


There are several things that need to be said or done. I know I'm not perfect, but we need a break. I am praying and asking the Lord for help. All I need to do is keep being positive and praying. I love my family and I will do just about anything to keep them. I promise that I love God and I love my family.

God bless.

Back to college I go...

Well, I have gone and done it. I am now attending college. I will be 41 years old tomorrow and now I will begin this new chapter on July 3rd online at Colorado Technical College. Thanks to my husband's nudging and support, I just picked one and got accepted and here we go. Almost done with the financial paperwork and will begin my fast tracks tomorrow to save me $1300 a class if I can pass them all. I'm going to do the best I can and continue to apply for grants & scholarships. I'm determined to complete and graduate. I will and thanks to Tommy and Cody for encouraging me and keeping me going. Love them. Thanks to Stephen too, who by the way flies out to Job Corps tomorrow to Montana and will begin his college education. We are so proud and we could not be happier for him. I still want to stow away in his suitcase and go to Montana too. Lol. Maybe we will get to go up there for his graduation. The Lord is blessing us. Thank you Jesus.

Ya know, lots of things go unsaid. Sometimes it is a waste of breath to even say anything. Sometimes, it's worth it to get what is needed. Now, who has time to analyze anymore. I am slipping away from that and really want to get back to conversations. It makes it more difficult these days to even discuss anything. Besides not feeling that I have enough time to get my point across, to getting interrupted, I am just too damn tired to even discuss, let alone, let MY feelings be known. So what do I do?  I guess I just keep praying that things will get better. I have been very patient.